I sincerely apologize that I’ve left you wondering. I’m sure you’ve lost sleep since my last post – tossing and turning with the unknown verdict: Will she or will she not cut my hair? Will she really commit to growing it out in order to donate 8 inches for Cancer patient wig making? Well, fear not, I’m here now with an answer.
Away she grows! I’ve decided – and you’ve heard it hear first (or from my mouth if you’ve been blessed as a person with whom I’ve discussed my hair in deep detail) – that for the next 1.5-2 years I’ll grow my hair. I’m also going to get Kayliana a good trim in the next few weeks and grow hers as well. She has such gorgeous hair and I think it’s a pretty amazing thought that a little girl could help someone in need in that way as well. (Obviously she doesn’t really ‘get’ the plan, but oh well. Plus, it’ll sure save us both on hair cut costs!)
So, a big decision has been made, oh, and another maybe just slightly more significant and life-changing one as well: I’ve decided to go back to school. WHA?! I know, right?! I really need to finally buckle down and get my teaching certificate. That’s right, I’ve taught without for years now – I’m an illegal teacher! (Well, not actually, just a non-certified one). Having my certificate will give me the ability to – once the kids are all in school full-time – sub occasionally and then eventually should it become necessary or desired I could teach full-time in a public school. Ideally I will also – later down the road – get my Music endorsement. The actual program that I’m looking at is on-line and typically only takes a year and a half. I, however, need to do some Pre-Req work before I can even apply. Plus, the last term is the full time 12 week student teaching bit, and I really don’t want to do full-day work until Kayli is in school full-day…which isn’t for a few years yet!
The part that freaks me out the most is MATH. Math is the enemy. I’ve bragged and boasted for years now on how I managed to graduate from the University of Washington without ever having to step foot in a math class. Actually, I even worked it so I only had to take three years of math in high school. I’ve not been in a mathematics course in SIXTEEN YEARS. I really did think that I would just relearn math along with my children. So far, that’s worked pretty well and I’ve been able to keep up with Matthew’s 4th grade load! However, it’s going to take a little more than that to get my Post Bacc in Elementary Education. I have to have two college level math classes. Initially, this thought to me sounded so awful, I’d rather have someone slowly spork out my eyeballs. However, I’m actually starting to warm up to the idea. I even spent an hour last night doing some math review and practice problems. I’d like to say, “Thank goodness! It wasn’t nearly as hard as I thought it’d be and I’ll be just fine!” But no, it was hard and I’m embarrassingly rusty/inept. BUT, I do feel more ready and excited with the prospect of really committing myself to this whole plan.
I’ve teeter-tottered back and forth the last few days (while looking into the program and going back to school in general). I’ve gone from – eh! It’ll be a piece of cake! To Holy Crap! I can’t even do basic math, what if I can’t even get in??! I mean, not only will I have to brush up on math in order to be ready for taking college level courses, but I have to actually pass two different assessment exams that both have math sections. I’ve kind of freaked out. I’m still kind of freaking out. And yet…I think I can do it. I know I can do it. I have yet to not do something that I’ve really set my mind to. (Now, we’ll just see if I can actually grow my hair as well. It’s going to be a busy few years!)